Angel of mine…

Im down with flu,cough, and slight fever. All come in a complete package. Something well expected from a Taurusian. Despite of my condition, I suddenly have the urge to “climb down” my “dungeon” and write an entry.I know it`s been awhile since the last time I posted an entry just because I have no idea what to write ( now I know how it feels to be in a writer block state). Luckily I`m not doing this blogging stuff for a living or else I`ll be eating dirt ( it`s low carb right?)

Something happened recently that really make me ponder about everything. In less than 3 months, Ive lost 3 of my close family members. My dear grandad ( eventhough he was not real grandad) , my uncle and 2 weeks ago, my aunt left us due to cancer. And the worst thing is we just discovered that she got cancer few days before the passed away. Poor grandma..losing a husband, son-in law and a daughter in less than 3 months. But I know, she`s a strong woman and she accepts all these calmly.

My grandad, he was a great man. He changed my dad`s life for good. When my dad was a young boy, he worked as a labor in a timber company until one day he got knocked down by the hook of a crane and received stitches on his head. And seeing this, my grandad took him as a child of his and ask him to quit his job. Who would take a stranger kid with uncertain background as a child when he himself had 5 kids of his own but he did. He was an angel and always is. My own grandad ( my father`s biological father) himself left my dad when he was a baby and we only get to meet him again when I was five years old already. It was him, my dear Nek Buah ( that`s what I`d been calling him) who brought my father up into such a fine young man, taught him so many things about life.

He and his wife are more a grandparents to both me and my sister compared to our real ones. They even took care of my older sister when she was born for months since my mum had a Caesarean section. He took us like their own grandchildren and loved us just like the rest. Never in my life I ever felt being left out in his family.

Only God knows how much I missed him now. One morning, I received a phone call from my dad , breaking me the news. I wanted to go back home that day, but I couldn`t get the ticket. I feel really bad that I can`t even attend his funeral. My dad told me he was doing fine the night before he passed away. He was joking about his sunglasses and all. And they were all relieved that he seemed ok that night since he had a fever few nights before that. Who would have thought that that night was the last night they could ever see him laugh.

I thank God for giving me the chance to have this wonderful man as my grandad. He was truly an angel to me and my family. No one could ever repay for what he had done for my dad and for us…and he will always be missed.

This is for you Nek Buah…

You came into my life sent from above
Better than a dream, such a perfect love
And I’ll adore you ’til the end of time
Angel of mine….

~ by amoidewa on April 6, 2008.